I wanna be brave

No one has ever accused me of being brave. I’ve been called a chicken, a coward, a scaredy-cat, and so on, since I was small. Not brave.

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I love to travel, hate to fly. Love to drive, afraid of snowy roads. Love amusement parks, afraid to ride the rides. Love the ocean, afraid of being eaten by a shark. Love the mountains, can’t sleep in the woods. Do you get the idea?

Sunday morning I was getting ready for church, scrounging through my closet and thinking about ideas from YouLookFab, a blog I enjoy. The author, IMHO, is cool. She’s bold, confident, not afraid to have an opinion or expose herself to the opinions of others. I pulled some things off the rack and tossed them on the bed. Very stylish. Very fab.  

But what would people think?
(That voice in my head would be the infamous internal editor writers deal with. In my case, the wench goes everywhere with me, all the time. Have you ever tried to cook dinner with an internal editor yammering at you?)

I put the clothes back in the closet and started a new search for something a bit less exciting. Helena Bonham Carter popped into my head.

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This woman is BRAVE. Not just with her wild wardrobe choices, she’s brave as a performer. I mean, in the past few years I’ve seen her in Harry Potter as a creepy witch with an awesome name (if I had another girl, I’d want to name her Bellatrix), puffed up as the mean and nasty Red Queen in Alice in Wonderland, and helping Johnny Depp make people pies in Sweeney Todd. And then she turns right around and plays Queen Elizabeth in The King’s Speech. That’s brave.

  • Brave isn’t just about clothing choices. It’s everything. It’s not being afraid to speak to a stranger, not being afraid to make a friend, not being afraid to bring correction when correction is due. 
  • Brave is facing adversity with strength and courage, not woe-is-me whining and sniveling. 
  • Brave is following your heart without second-guessing every choice, always looking over your shoulder to see what everyone thinks about it. 
  • Brave is creating art (music, writing, film, whatever) that crosses lines, exposes truth, and forces people to think about their lives and the way they live them, whether they like it or not. 
  • Brave is taking a stand for an unpopular cause, doing what’s right because it’s right, not because it earns you anything. 

There’s a brave person trapped inside this body, and she wants out.
But first I’m going to have to figure out a way to do away with that internal editor…

2 thoughts on “I wanna be brave

  1. Anonymous says:

    Are you kidding me? You are one of the gutsiest ladies I have ever met, along with my wife for marrying me. For you to pick up everything you knew and move, purposely, to Meeker, Colorado and Pastor a church there for the last, what, 13 years of your life…in Meeker??? Can anything good come out of Meeker? Only Laura has you beat (for biased reasons of course) as far as women that I personally know as the bravest woman alive for what you were willing to give up to do what God has called you do. You (and your hubby of course) spoke the Word into our lives, and has single-handedly helped my family become faith filled Word speaking people. We have been around a lot of ministers over the past 18 years, but none compare to the belief you put into us, speaking the Word over us, into us, and you have been very instrumental in my personal growth both as a minister and a person. Chicken…no way. Brave & courageous? Totally, in everyway, yes. Thank you for all you have done in my life, my wife's life, and in my families life. If it weren't for you, I don't know how we would be standing through what we are going through right now. Because of you, we are staring straight into the devil's face and standing on the Word of God without being moved. I thank God all the time for Him allowing me to be mentored by you.

  2. Unknown says:

    The thing is, when we are most ourselves, we tend to help set other people free.

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